Do I move forward and do everything for the pack? Or do I pretend to care about human fashion, clubs, or media? I can’t connect with anyone. The girls I graduated with are fine, but I don’t feel like I belong. I also do feel like I belong with the Garou. I’m just very confused and rather hurt. I’m trying to work it out on my own because I don’t want anyone to know about it. But, then I also feel guilty and ashamed to be holding a secret. My turmoil means nothing in the grand scheme of things. More concerned about the city. We decided on our totem I hope we picked well. I’m leery of these dangerous situations we are placed in, running into a group of skin heads is not what I would call and great Saturday night out, you know?
Also, being the legal guardian of your Alpha is a weird situation. Making sure he has his lunch every morning for school, and I’m rather insistent to drive him to school myself, not that I don’t trust my driver. Also, I’m rather protective of the little guy. I just like the freedom. Not like I do much all day. I need to pick up some hobbies. I think some mediation tonight would be cleansing after the couple nights we’ve had.